Long time didn't update in here. Cause I was busy sometime and nothing to share her. Actually is lazy to type.
Last Friday, it is a big event in our school, the carnival. My society sold fried chicken and fried hot dog. Good business, 4 hours can't even relax too. We relax while we waiting for the chicken and hot dog fried. But the students still waiting for it. Some of them waiting for 1 hour to buy, thank you everyone. The carnival end, we just left 30 pieces chicken we haven't fried. We earned a lot that day, 1st time many people and not enough to eat. Nice experience. But I fell sorry cause I was unfair. Besides, our school had a special event that's Cosplay Competition. It is the 1st year create the event. If next year still on going, I trust next year will more people join our carnival than before.
At 10.20am was my free time, the carnival start from 8am. Before I rest, I saw her was holding a big white bear. I was shocked, someone gift her a bear. Thought she help a friend to hold, but it is wrong. Okay, it is not a big problem she had a bear. The terrible thing is, my friend told me that bear is gift by my friend who same class with me. I was shocked that time, my mood sink into the well. That time I fell was... complicated. That boy, he get the bear in the carnival. He spent a lot of money in the games and get some bears. Not only gift her, also gift the other girls. What is he thinking about? Gift bear to a girl is normal, but will you gift a bear to a hi bye friend or a new friend? Am I selfish? I'm not talking about that. I was busy to sell foods for my society, he was playing games, get the bears and gift her. I bet she was very happy, cause she want it very much. I wish I can get one for her too, but I can't. It is complicated. She is happy and treat him good than me, maybe. I have a bad feeling he will trick her. Because of you, her phone was stolen.
Try to treat her good. Try to make her happy. Try to care her. Try to help her to solve problem. Try to make her dream come true. I had tried before and did some. But, it useless sometime. Maybe she get it how I treat her. I still failed. Almost 1 year after a month, still the same. Because of feel? I don't know. You will think I'm childish and think a lot. Maybe? It is really complicated. If you think it is a joke, just ignore it and just act it is a bed time story.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Take it easy
Have long long time didn't TOUCH this blog. And I know that nobody will visit my BLOG. All the DUST and WORMS...
Many things happen. All the PROBLEMS are SOLVE. About friendship, relationship and love...Well, I don't know wanna say what..
18/4/2011~~~25/4/2011
it's really a nice memory and I left many memories during this 7 days. Happiness, sadness, cheerful etc. I done the BAD decision and done a GOOD decision. But, just feel that I'm very sorry in it. Thank you and sorry, hope you can grow up and learn more things. You can do it and trust you can do it! But, please take some time and don't rush...I know it's really a bad memories for you and you are scared! You need to let yourself be more stronger! Okay? Hope you can change your name. So you won't think that you are that type of thing. Just what I say to you before. I saw your photos. When I seeing your photos, my mind appeared many view. About you, you and me, your future...I feel proud of you. I can't tell you what I saw, hope 1 day I can tell you :)
From middle of January till now.
I wait for you. About 5 months plus. But dream haven't come true and I failed. I done the bad decision and not enough to be with you. Thanks and you done a right decision. Now, I still waiting. I can't give up, because I found the true. Hope you can know. Sometime feel stress and stupid. What am I doing? I just left the last chance. I will treasure it and won't WASTE this chance. Hope you can give me one more chance.
In the holiday
In holiday, I had a great holiday. I left Malaysia about 10 days and I stay in Europe. I enjoy and hope can visit once again. If you interested, you can visit my FACEBOOK and check it out. I CREATED about 10 albums for this trip. Enjoy and hope you like it.
Many things happen. All the PROBLEMS are SOLVE. About friendship, relationship and love...Well, I don't know wanna say what..
18/4/2011~~~25/4/2011
it's really a nice memory and I left many memories during this 7 days. Happiness, sadness, cheerful etc. I done the BAD decision and done a GOOD decision. But, just feel that I'm very sorry in it. Thank you and sorry, hope you can grow up and learn more things. You can do it and trust you can do it! But, please take some time and don't rush...I know it's really a bad memories for you and you are scared! You need to let yourself be more stronger! Okay? Hope you can change your name. So you won't think that you are that type of thing. Just what I say to you before. I saw your photos. When I seeing your photos, my mind appeared many view. About you, you and me, your future...I feel proud of you. I can't tell you what I saw, hope 1 day I can tell you :)
From middle of January till now.
I wait for you. About 5 months plus. But dream haven't come true and I failed. I done the bad decision and not enough to be with you. Thanks and you done a right decision. Now, I still waiting. I can't give up, because I found the true. Hope you can know. Sometime feel stress and stupid. What am I doing? I just left the last chance. I will treasure it and won't WASTE this chance. Hope you can give me one more chance.
In the holiday
In holiday, I had a great holiday. I left Malaysia about 10 days and I stay in Europe. I enjoy and hope can visit once again. If you interested, you can visit my FACEBOOK and check it out. I CREATED about 10 albums for this trip. Enjoy and hope you like it.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Answer
Well,finally I get the answer for 1 week.I wait for 1 week.
Seems like very long,but for me is quite fast.
After I get the answer,feel sad of course.
But I won't mad on you,because this is your decision.I accept.^^
And I'm not expect that you will accept me.Because you told me before you enjoy your single life.
So...I know what you thinking and what you hope.
Anyway,thanks for your final answer.I wait for 1 week already.
Hope we can still be best friend forever!!!XD
Thank You Sam...You gave me a new experience in this moment.^^
Seems like very long,but for me is quite fast.
After I get the answer,feel sad of course.
But I won't mad on you,because this is your decision.I accept.^^
And I'm not expect that you will accept me.Because you told me before you enjoy your single life.
So...I know what you thinking and what you hope.
Anyway,thanks for your final answer.I wait for 1 week already.
Hope we can still be best friend forever!!!XD
Thank You Sam...You gave me a new experience in this moment.^^
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Bad feeling?
I think I have a bad feeling.I don't why have these feeling.
I told her,from SMS,MSN and PM.But,she haven't reply me.
Seems it passed 4 days,and I feel that you read it.
But you haven't reply it.
Few days ago,saw you haven't internet.So,it's fine..
Today,I saw you internet.But...you haven't reply.
You feel I'm annoying?If I was annoying,sorry...
But,I'm very nervous and...worry.Really..
This time,I use the different way to tell her.
You can take some times and think,I won't mind.
But I think I'm stupid?Because she didn't think before.I think.
But hope will think.I think,I will find you on Monday.
I think it's to fast,I think so...
I really don't know what am I thinking about.
Just hope,you can give me a chance.I will appreciate it... :)
I told her,from SMS,MSN and PM.But,she haven't reply me.
Seems it passed 4 days,and I feel that you read it.
But you haven't reply it.
Few days ago,saw you haven't internet.So,it's fine..
Today,I saw you internet.But...you haven't reply.
You feel I'm annoying?If I was annoying,sorry...
But,I'm very nervous and...worry.Really..
This time,I use the different way to tell her.
You can take some times and think,I won't mind.
But I think I'm stupid?Because she didn't think before.I think.
But hope will think.I think,I will find you on Monday.
I think it's to fast,I think so...
I really don't know what am I thinking about.
Just hope,you can give me a chance.I will appreciate it... :)
Monday, March 14, 2011
矛。盾。
我。。。在矛盾什么？
为什么，我会去看我和他MSN的HISTORY呢？
到底是因为什么？
现在，我在想什么啊？？！！
我好乱，好乱，好乱。。。
是我自己得来的吗？如果把所有的东西都化无，那样会更好吗？
我，到底是不是喜欢你？还是我把事情误会了？
是不是因为我太认真读书而没时间管理吗？
总觉得，我在欺骗自己，欺骗自己的心。
如果，我和你说我喜欢你，可以给我一次机会吗？你会怎么样？
我好乱，好乱。。。有时候想要一错再错。。。
原来，喜欢和不喜欢，沟通的方式是不一样的。。。
现在，我都不知道我在想些什么。。。
现在的我，不是我，绥杰
而是迷失的羔羊，迷失的羔羊又回来了。。
羔羊，羔羊。。。如何好呢？！
希望妳，能陪我解决这项困扰，矛盾。。。谢谢。。。
为什么，我会去看我和他MSN的HISTORY呢？
到底是因为什么？
现在，我在想什么啊？？！！
我好乱，好乱，好乱。。。
是我自己得来的吗？如果把所有的东西都化无，那样会更好吗？
我，到底是不是喜欢你？还是我把事情误会了？
是不是因为我太认真读书而没时间管理吗？
总觉得，我在欺骗自己，欺骗自己的心。
如果，我和你说我喜欢你，可以给我一次机会吗？你会怎么样？
我好乱，好乱。。。有时候想要一错再错。。。
原来，喜欢和不喜欢，沟通的方式是不一样的。。。
现在，我都不知道我在想些什么。。。
现在的我，不是我，绥杰
而是迷失的羔羊，迷失的羔羊又回来了。。
羔羊，羔羊。。。如何好呢？！
希望妳，能陪我解决这项困扰，矛盾。。。谢谢。。。
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