Long time didn't update in here. Cause I was busy sometime and nothing to share her. Actually is lazy to type.
Last Friday, it is a big event in our school, the carnival. My society sold fried chicken and fried hot dog. Good business, 4 hours can't even relax too. We relax while we waiting for the chicken and hot dog fried. But the students still waiting for it. Some of them waiting for 1 hour to buy, thank you everyone. The carnival end, we just left 30 pieces chicken we haven't fried. We earned a lot that day, 1st time many people and not enough to eat. Nice experience. But I fell sorry cause I was unfair. Besides, our school had a special event that's Cosplay Competition. It is the 1st year create the event. If next year still on going, I trust next year will more people join our carnival than before.
At 10.20am was my free time, the carnival start from 8am. Before I rest, I saw her was holding a big white bear. I was shocked, someone gift her a bear. Thought she help a friend to hold, but it is wrong. Okay, it is not a big problem she had a bear. The terrible thing is, my friend told me that bear is gift by my friend who same class with me. I was shocked that time, my mood sink into the well. That time I fell was... complicated. That boy, he get the bear in the carnival. He spent a lot of money in the games and get some bears. Not only gift her, also gift the other girls. What is he thinking about? Gift bear to a girl is normal, but will you gift a bear to a hi bye friend or a new friend? Am I selfish? I'm not talking about that. I was busy to sell foods for my society, he was playing games, get the bears and gift her. I bet she was very happy, cause she want it very much. I wish I can get one for her too, but I can't. It is complicated. She is happy and treat him good than me, maybe. I have a bad feeling he will trick her. Because of you, her phone was stolen.
Try to treat her good. Try to make her happy. Try to care her. Try to help her to solve problem. Try to make her dream come true. I had tried before and did some. But, it useless sometime. Maybe she get it how I treat her. I still failed. Almost 1 year after a month, still the same. Because of feel? I don't know. You will think I'm childish and think a lot. Maybe? It is really complicated. If you think it is a joke, just ignore it and just act it is a bed time story.
this is one big problem you have there, this girl..must be a very important person to you, from the way a simple bear that she holds effects your mood, you're thinking too much, try to let go some of the stuf that you're thinking of, and you'll get very stressed and you won't be able to concentrate in studies, or even life, it would pull you down to the deepest well, so get hold of yourself =D
ReplyDeleteyour English is terribly illegitimate, and the way your express your feelings are extremely gay. cheers!
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