Have long long time didn't TOUCH this blog. And I know that nobody will visit my BLOG. All the DUST and WORMS...
Many things happen. All the PROBLEMS are SOLVE. About friendship, relationship and love...Well, I don't know wanna say what..
18/4/2011~~~25/4/2011
it's really a nice memory and I left many memories during this 7 days. Happiness, sadness, cheerful etc. I done the BAD decision and done a GOOD decision. But, just feel that I'm very sorry in it. Thank you and sorry, hope you can grow up and learn more things. You can do it and trust you can do it! But, please take some time and don't rush...I know it's really a bad memories for you and you are scared! You need to let yourself be more stronger! Okay? Hope you can change your name. So you won't think that you are that type of thing. Just what I say to you before. I saw your photos. When I seeing your photos, my mind appeared many view. About you, you and me, your future...I feel proud of you. I can't tell you what I saw, hope 1 day I can tell you :)
From middle of January till now.
I wait for you. About 5 months plus. But dream haven't come true and I failed. I done the bad decision and not enough to be with you. Thanks and you done a right decision. Now, I still waiting. I can't give up, because I found the true. Hope you can know. Sometime feel stress and stupid. What am I doing? I just left the last chance. I will treasure it and won't WASTE this chance. Hope you can give me one more chance.
In the holiday
In holiday, I had a great holiday. I left Malaysia about 10 days and I stay in Europe. I enjoy and hope can visit once again. If you interested, you can visit my FACEBOOK and check it out. I CREATED about 10 albums for this trip. Enjoy and hope you like it.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Answer
Well,finally I get the answer for 1 week.I wait for 1 week.
Seems like very long,but for me is quite fast.
After I get the answer,feel sad of course.
But I won't mad on you,because this is your decision.I accept.^^
And I'm not expect that you will accept me.Because you told me before you enjoy your single life.
So...I know what you thinking and what you hope.
Anyway,thanks for your final answer.I wait for 1 week already.
Hope we can still be best friend forever!!!XD
Thank You Sam...You gave me a new experience in this moment.^^
Seems like very long,but for me is quite fast.
After I get the answer,feel sad of course.
But I won't mad on you,because this is your decision.I accept.^^
And I'm not expect that you will accept me.Because you told me before you enjoy your single life.
So...I know what you thinking and what you hope.
Anyway,thanks for your final answer.I wait for 1 week already.
Hope we can still be best friend forever!!!XD
Thank You Sam...You gave me a new experience in this moment.^^
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Bad feeling?
I think I have a bad feeling.I don't why have these feeling.
I told her,from SMS,MSN and PM.But,she haven't reply me.
Seems it passed 4 days,and I feel that you read it.
But you haven't reply it.
Few days ago,saw you haven't internet.So,it's fine..
Today,I saw you internet.But...you haven't reply.
You feel I'm annoying?If I was annoying,sorry...
But,I'm very nervous and...worry.Really..
This time,I use the different way to tell her.
You can take some times and think,I won't mind.
But I think I'm stupid?Because she didn't think before.I think.
But hope will think.I think,I will find you on Monday.
I think it's to fast,I think so...
I really don't know what am I thinking about.
Just hope,you can give me a chance.I will appreciate it... :)
I told her,from SMS,MSN and PM.But,she haven't reply me.
Seems it passed 4 days,and I feel that you read it.
But you haven't reply it.
Few days ago,saw you haven't internet.So,it's fine..
Today,I saw you internet.But...you haven't reply.
You feel I'm annoying?If I was annoying,sorry...
But,I'm very nervous and...worry.Really..
This time,I use the different way to tell her.
You can take some times and think,I won't mind.
But I think I'm stupid?Because she didn't think before.I think.
But hope will think.I think,I will find you on Monday.
I think it's to fast,I think so...
I really don't know what am I thinking about.
Just hope,you can give me a chance.I will appreciate it... :)
Monday, March 14, 2011
矛。盾。
我。。。在矛盾什么？
为什么，我会去看我和他MSN的HISTORY呢？
到底是因为什么？
现在，我在想什么啊？？！！
我好乱，好乱，好乱。。。
是我自己得来的吗？如果把所有的东西都化无，那样会更好吗？
我，到底是不是喜欢你？还是我把事情误会了？
是不是因为我太认真读书而没时间管理吗？
总觉得，我在欺骗自己，欺骗自己的心。
如果，我和你说我喜欢你，可以给我一次机会吗？你会怎么样？
我好乱，好乱。。。有时候想要一错再错。。。
原来，喜欢和不喜欢，沟通的方式是不一样的。。。
现在，我都不知道我在想些什么。。。
现在的我，不是我，绥杰
而是迷失的羔羊，迷失的羔羊又回来了。。
羔羊，羔羊。。。如何好呢？！
希望妳，能陪我解决这项困扰，矛盾。。。谢谢。。。
为什么，我会去看我和他MSN的HISTORY呢？
到底是因为什么？
现在，我在想什么啊？？！！
我好乱，好乱，好乱。。。
是我自己得来的吗？如果把所有的东西都化无，那样会更好吗？
我，到底是不是喜欢你？还是我把事情误会了？
是不是因为我太认真读书而没时间管理吗？
总觉得，我在欺骗自己，欺骗自己的心。
如果，我和你说我喜欢你，可以给我一次机会吗？你会怎么样？
我好乱，好乱。。。有时候想要一错再错。。。
原来，喜欢和不喜欢，沟通的方式是不一样的。。。
现在，我都不知道我在想些什么。。。
现在的我，不是我，绥杰
而是迷失的羔羊，迷失的羔羊又回来了。。
羔羊，羔羊。。。如何好呢？！
希望妳，能陪我解决这项困扰，矛盾。。。谢谢。。。
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Are You CRAZY?!
Can I ask are you crazy?!!!!??
Exam just over,and I concentrate in it.
I concentrate in it than last time,last year and before.
And now I'm using computer you call me off it and go study?!
Are you crazy?!What I'm gonna study?!
Can I have some space?!You let my cousin play PS2,he didn't keep it.
You call me to keep it immediately and call me don't play PS2!!
I don't have any mood to play PS2 and you just scold me?!
Are you crazy?!You want me to study in this holiday?!
I got many stress and I'm hard working in my test.
You saw it.And,I'm not the people who pro in study.
I'm not that idiot!!!Keep studying studying studying...
You are crazy you know?!Let me relax and give me some space.
I hate STRESS,I hate ANNOYING!!!
I'm big boy and I know how to arrange myself!!!
I wanna enjoy my holiday for 1 week!!!
I hard working than before and I force myself study and get high mark for this year.
That's enough!!!
Exam just over,and I concentrate in it.
I concentrate in it than last time,last year and before.
And now I'm using computer you call me off it and go study?!
Are you crazy?!What I'm gonna study?!
Can I have some space?!You let my cousin play PS2,he didn't keep it.
You call me to keep it immediately and call me don't play PS2!!
I don't have any mood to play PS2 and you just scold me?!
Are you crazy?!You want me to study in this holiday?!
I got many stress and I'm hard working in my test.
You saw it.And,I'm not the people who pro in study.
I'm not that idiot!!!Keep studying studying studying...
You are crazy you know?!Let me relax and give me some space.
I hate STRESS,I hate ANNOYING!!!
I'm big boy and I know how to arrange myself!!!
I wanna enjoy my holiday for 1 week!!!
I hard working than before and I force myself study and get high mark for this year.
That's enough!!!
我喜欢你？ 命运？
你是我第三个喜欢的人。
生日那天，我们才真正的认识。我还记得。。。
那时候的我们，还谈的兴高采烈 吧？
那时候，我认识了一个新的朋友。
我也不知道怎么说。。。
说着说着，我发现你的笑容
你的笑容，是我见过最特别，最灿烂
有时候，下课时走过你的班想看看你
看见你，我的心跳加速，这就是所谓的喜欢一个人的现象？
看到你，觉得很兴奋。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
渐渐的，我有了一种心情，那就是想了解你多一点
但是，不知不觉我好想喜欢你了
那时候，我想和你告白但之后才知道你有男友
我就停止我的告白行动，但我还在等。。。
这是命运吧。。。
不知不觉，我喜欢你2个月了。最近才知道你和男友分了。那时候的我，你可以说我自私小人。我的心情是开心，兴奋和伤心
那时候，我就开始想追求你。可是，那时候是考试了。。。
我想说，考试完后再追求你。
可是，但我要和你告白时，我在犹豫。。。
犹豫，要如何和你告白？
我的问题出现了，为什么我会和你告白？
我的心很乱，当初我喜欢你，想追求你。可是，为什么我会这么想呢？
我是真的喜欢你还是之后好感？
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在那两个月期间，我们还是一样有联络谈天
可是渐渐的，你的回复和以往有点不同。
我猜想说，是不是因为我每次找你和令你有反感？
我还需要了解你很多，可是我无法了解你。
我是在喜欢你的笑容还是你？
但是，昨天我做了决定想忘掉这一切。
我知道你看了没什么感觉，只会觉得有个白痴在自言自语。
我也这么觉得，这就是所谓的单恋？算是吧？
谢谢你让我这样的经验，让我学到东西。
但我还会试着了解到底我是不是在喜欢你？
谢谢你，Samantha Chin
感觉。答案
昨天，我的朋友激动我的心。
问我，为什么你会喜欢他？
当时的我，不能直接的回答他。
那时候，我就开始沉默。。。
问自己，为什么我喜欢他，喜欢他哪点？
想。。。想。。。想。。。
当初，我喜欢他是因为他的笑容，内心。
每一次，我和朋友说我喜欢他，要如何面对呢？
渐渐的，我每次说喜欢他可是内心是这么想的吗？
这是口是心非？
朋友问了我后，我才真正的想这问题。。。
我的心和乱，喜欢和好感一直围绕着我。
喜欢，他的笑容？好感，他的内心？还是，这是最要好的朋友的感觉？
最后，我下决心放弃这个恋爱。不再喜欢他，不再追求她。
我也不知道理由是哪里，只是想把这个感觉弄清楚。
喜欢？好感？知已？
这是我要的答案。
当我放下时，我的心顿时地放松，不再沉默。
这意思是什么？我在勉强我自己喜欢他？
说喜欢他，可是内心没有喜欢他？
希望这可以进一步的谅解自己在想些什么。
我也学到了如果分辨好感和喜欢。
谢谢你朋友，谢谢你让我有这新的经验和学习。
Saturday, March 12, 2011
感觉，又来了吗？！
这种感觉，有来了吗？
好感，还是喜欢？
这感觉已有三个月了。
有时候，我还搞不清楚这感觉是那一个？
好感？喜欢？
大人们说：中学生不可谈恋爱。
这是一部分的大人会所的。
可是，时代改变了，连小学生都开始谈恋爱了
这是正常的吗？我觉得，是的。
现在的，有时候还在挣扎着，是否是好感还是喜欢。
想。。。想。。。想。。。
这感觉，不是好感也不是喜欢。
莫非是另一种感觉？
知已？好友？BFF？
我还没搞清楚这感觉。
如果我选择了喜欢的感觉，想她告白但我的感觉是好感呢？
那我就错了，我就是那个坏人。
希望在这星期里，我能够找到这个感觉的答案。。
我相信。。。
WOW!!
WOW!!!Have long time didn't update har? It's really long time.Seems from Christmas till now.It's really terrible~~..haha!! Hmm...I got many things wanna post in here,but...lazy.During typing,my mood gone~~So..if you got view my blog,sorry and I tried to update it..>< I got many stories wanna say in this 3 months..quite many things happen.Happiness,Sad case,Surprise and many many stories.Hope I can share in here and you can see it..^^ Happy Holiday everyone~~XD
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